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Another pesky pound has gone.

Now back down to 14st 6lbs (202lbs).

Just 3lbs to go to Onederland.

And 12 days in which to lose them.

Treat cupboard looking marginally less full...

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Phew, one of those pesky treat-cupboard-enduced pounds has bitten the dust. Back to 14st 7lbs.
I've been to the gym twice in two days now that small boy is back at nursery, so perhaps that is helping.

Exactly two weeks to go in the "Onederland in One Year" challenge, and 4lbs to lose. But don't tell my brain what the plan is because it will just lead me straight to the treat cupboard.

Naughty brain.

New Year Anti-Miracle

I've put on weight. Arrggh. Now, admittedly it is TOTM so I could blame that. Or I could blame myself for eating my body weight twice over in chocolate biscuits. How is it that I was 'good' over Christmas, but now feel the need to eat and eat and eat all the naughty stuff that's left over? Don't worry about suggesting that I throw it away because I know I just won't do it. I'll just keep eating; that's what I do. But I'll be ENJOYING it - so don't worry about me!

14st 8lbs - 204bs - BMI 33.9
(a total loss so far of 58lbs; 36lbs to go!)

That's 3lbs up from my lowest weight and now 5lbs away from Onederland. I have a feeling I might be sabotaging myself. There's something a bit odd about me that makes me think I shouldn't have set the goal of being in Onederland by 20 Jan. As soon as there's some sort of concrete goal to aim for, it's like I'm determined not to do it. Can't explain why. Think it's the awkward, only child part of my nature that refuses to do as she is told. Ho hum. Not to worry, the weight will come off just as soon as stock in the treat cupboard is running low again. Look away now if you don't want to see what the treat cupboard looks like at this very moment.

The treat cupboard can't really be blamed for the weight gain because the treat cupboard actually looks like this most of the time and I don't bother about it that much. So, it must be a combination of TOTM and sheer bloody-mindedness that is making me pile on the pounds. Perhaps I need to tell myself "There is no goal; there is no goal" and the weight will just melt away...

My Word for 2011

ENJOY

Jumping on the 'word for 2011' bandwagon, I've chosen 'enjoy'

verb (used with object)
1: to experience with joy; take pleasure in
2: to have and use with satisfaction; have the benefit of
3: to find or experience pleasure for (oneself)
4: to undergo (an improvement)

All of these definitions seem very apt for life with the band, don't you think? And in more detail, here's how they do/will/can apply to me:

No. 1 - since the amount of food I can now eat is very limited, I intend to take pleasure in the foods that I do/can eat. I refuse to feel guilty about eating a biscuit, in fact I don't even feel guilty if I eat one hundred and eleventy seven biscuits in a day, followed by a big bar of chocolate and a wash it all down with a Snowball. So what? Tomorrow I may only eat a grape.

I also intend to experience with joy shopping for clothes, playing with my son, spending time with hubby, going out in the snow, meeting friends, and all those things that were not necessarily joyous when I weighed 60lbs more.

No. 2 - I am using the band with satisfaction and I certainly have the benefit of it

No. 3 - I am finding and experiencing pleasure in many aspects of my life since being banded - see No. 1 above.

No. 4 - I think it's fair to say that I have undergone an improvement since being banded - my health has improved, I have more energy, more confidence and I am generally a much happier person.

In the words of a song written in 1949 and played as the introduction to his programme by one of my favourite DJs:

Enjoy yourself, it's later than you think

Enjoy yourself, while you're still in the pink

The years go by, as quickly as you wink

Enjoy yourself, enjoy yourself,

It's later than you think

And here's my darling boy showing how easy it is to enjoy life!

A Christmas Miracle

I've been a bit remiss on the blogging front, haven't I? I just don't know where the time has gone. Hubby finally got home from the US on the Monday evening and then on the Wednesday we headed "oooop north" for the Christmas break; we were away for a week and it flew by in the blink of an eye. Christmas has just disappeared; hubby & I were both felt that we didn't get a chance to appreciate the run-up to Christmas, which is one of the parts we enjoy the most. Oh well, there's always next year!

So, Christmas brought with it the usual round of chocolates, crisps, chocolates, biscuits, drinks, chocolates, party food, chocolates. But this year things were slightly different from my point of view because, obviously, there was no over-eating. Yes, I ate more chocolates than usual; yes, I drank more alcohol (in the form of Snowballs) than usual, but that was about it. And, the Christmas miracle came in the form of a 1lb LOSS over the Christmas period. Yep, a LOSS. Must be the first time in history that I have lost weight at this time of year. And it's all down to the band.

14st 5lbs - 201bs - BMI 33.4

(a total loss so far of 61lbs; 33lbs to go!)

Just 2lbs to go til Onederland....

And another first for this time of year - I went out in the snow and I didn't mind. I'm not going to say I love the snow, because I don't but I certainly don't hate it as much as I did when I was 60lbs heavier! I just pulled on my new Ugg boots (courtesy of hubby for Xmas, by way of NYC) and off I went, pulling small boy along on his sledge.

Oh, and another first - I bought a new outift to wear specifically for Christmas Day. The photo quality is appalling - taken with an iPhone which small boy had been playing with (greasy paws all over the lens) - but you get the idea, I'm sure. New dress from Monsoon in UK size 18 (US 14) and a pair of knee-length boots from a regular shop (Clarks), courtesy of my Mum for Xmas.

I hope you all had a lovely Christmas break, and Happy New Year too! Here's hoping it's a slender one.

60!!!!!

Two bits of good news today:


1) Hubby is finally on his way home; his flight from Orlando left at 6am Florida time/11am UK time and he is due in about 7pm this evening. Apparently the pilot thinks the flight will take an hour less than usual presumably because the plane weighs almost nothing (a bit like me -hah!) due to there being just 42 people (including crew) onboard! Isn't that crazy?


2) I weighed in this morning another 1lb down - if I didn't miss hubby so much I'd almost want him to stay away longer so my weight continues to plummet! So, I've now lost 60lbs - a great big fat 6-0 pounds have gone and they are NOT coming back. I have no fear about Christmas; I shall eat what/when I like safe in the knowledge that the band will keep me (mostly) on the straight and narrow and Onederland will be here in the New Year.

14st 6lbs - 202bs - BMI 33.6

(a total loss so far of 60lbs; 34lbs to go!)

That's just 3lbs til Onederland!

**** edited to add****

I've only just realised that the 60lbs loss coincided with my 11 month bandiversary! Great timing, non?!

Having a 'mare

Poor hubby is having an absolute nightmare getting home from the USA right now due to the snow in the UK. He started trying to get home on Friday afternoon; it's now Sunday evening and he's a little closer than he was, but not much. Friday he was in San Francisco, his flight from there to Los Angeles got cancelled so he missed his onward flight to the UK; so Saturday morning he flew to Houston from where he was supposed to get an onward flight to London; he got to Houston but the onward flight was cancelled; he was booked on to the same flight a day later (ie today); that flight also got cancelled. He's now waiting for a flight from Houston to Orlando and is booked on a flight from there to London. His flight from Houston has been delayed; luckily (?!) the onward flight has also been delayed. Jeeeeepers, poor hubby.

And poor me too - having to cope with small boy all on my own, in the snow! Our car is snowed in so although the main roads are clear, there's very little chance I can get the car out and get him over to nursery tomorrow, so that's another day I'm going to have to find something to keep him entertained and worn out! Still, the good news is all this lone-parent child-rearing has led me to lose another 1lb!!

14st 7lbs - 203bs - BMI 33.8
(a total loss so far of 59lbs; 35lbs to go!)

That's just 1lb away from 60lbs down and just 4lbs away from Onederland!!!! Will I make it in time for my one year bandiversary? Watch this space...