No, no, no, I didn't sign up for this! Willpower, you say? No, no, no, you must have mistaken me for someone who can diet. Isn't that what willpower is for?!
So, here's the deal. I don't think the fill I had last week (my second) has made any difference to the amount I can eat; if anything, I feel like I can eat/am eating more than pre-fill (is it physical or psychosomatic?) So, I called to make an appointment for another one; my surgeon asks for a two-week gap between fills, which I fully appreciate. That would mean 8th April as the soonest I can get another; but my surgeon is on holiday then and the earliest I can get an appointment is 21st April - aarrrgggghh. That's three weeks tomorrow. At the rate I'm eating I'll have put all my weight back on by then! So, I emailed his office to see if the other surgeon could perhaps give me a fill before then, but it doesn't work like that, except in emergencies, apparently. Also, my surgeon wants me to wait until the 21st as he doesn't like to give too many fills too close together in the early days as it can lead to band slippage later on. Anyone else heard that? Anyhoo, the lady I spoke to who co-ordinates these things, said I should try experimenting with different foods to see if I can find some that fill me up for longer and that, also, I may have to rely on willpower for a bit. AYYYEEEEE! Clearly willpower is not one of my strong points or I would never have got to the position of needing a band in the first place. However, maybe since it's only willpower in the short term, perhaps I can manage it. Hubby suggested we both go on the pre-op diet for the next 2-3 weeks since it was so successful last time (7lbs lost in 10 days) and since it actually isn't too bad (ie, you get to eat a fair amount of real food!), and that sounds like a (fairly) good idea, so that's probably what we'll do (give or take the two days we're in Bristol, the three I'm in Harrogate, and the two we're in Wigan between now and fill day...)