Tell me, then, why aren't I jumping for joy? Why am I worried? Why do I just keep thinking 'When am I going to put this weight back on?' Several reasons:
1) Every diet I've ever been on has failed. That's pretty obvious, otherwise I wouldn't have topped out at 262lbs and felt the need to have WLS. It's not that I'm waiting for the Band to fail me, or for me to fail the Band, it's just that I've not yet got my head around the fact that this time when the weight goes, it goes for good. I'm too much of a newbie-bandster for that to have sunk in. I've not had enough bandster experience yet, have I?
2) Everybody knows when you lose weight quickly it rarely stays off. Doesn't your body just go in to starvation mode so that the moment you start eating "normally" again, the weight comes back with a vengeance?
3) Being on liquids/purees/mushies isn't going to last forever (unless I keep it that way, I guess!), and when it stops and I'm in 'Bandster Hell', then surely I'll just put the weight back on. OK, maybe not all of it, but I'm guessing some of it is going to come back, and that is what is stopping me from getting overly excited about the weight I've lost so far. I don't what to sound ungrateful because, believe me, I am really pleased to have lost this weight, I guess I'm just not taking it for granted, yet.
And on to other matters, of the toilet variety (you can stop reading here, if you like!) I had a 'dumping' episode today, which makes me think that's what happened to me yesterday too. Does this make me a very bad bandster?! Surely I shouldn't be dumping already. Yikes. And the culprit was the same as yesterday - a hot chocolate with whipped cream. About an hour-and-a-half after finishing it in Starbucks my stomach started cramping up. Yet again, we were out and about (this time in Henley-on-Thames) but luckily it's only 6 miles from home so I didn't have long to wait for the comforts of our own loo.
I looked up 'dumping' in the book Catherine (http://chroniclesfrombandland.blogspot.com/ )recommended Weight Loss Surgery with the Adjustable Gastric Band by Sewell & Rohrburg. This is what is says (slightly shortened by me): the rapid addition of large volumes of water from the bloodstream into the intestine in direct response to eating a large amount of sugar or carbohydrate [or a hot chocolate with whipped cream]. Common in GB patients because the stomach normally serves as a buffer, allowing only small amounts of highly concentrated sugar or carbs to reach the intestine at any one time. Symptoms can include sudden crampy abdominal pain, nausea, bloating, diarrhoea, lightheadedness, sweating, rapid heart rate, dizziness and fatigue.
Clearly, that's what happened to me, but I don't really understand why. It says that the 'stomach normally serves as a buffer', so why is my stomach not acting as a buffer now? My stomach is still there, it's just been divided in two. Anyone else suffered from dumping? Do you have a better explanation for it?
Anyway, enough from me, hope you are all well!